Wednesday, May 28, 2008

The Sun Came Out Today

Ava had her very first Field Day at school today. Tomorrow is her LAST day of preschool. Wow. It was hilarious watching 50 two to five year olds follow directions with the parachute. The first time they all ran to the middle and sat down. The second time the teacher told them to run to the other side. The third time she said to not run or go to the middle, but just sit down right on the inside. Did it happen? Heck NO. LOL Mallory got to participate, get an award and a popsicle with the rest of the class. Good times.

After lunch I took the girls back to the school to play on the big kids' playground. They had it all to themselves for about half an hour- then the after school care kids came out. Ava followed one 8 year old girl around and said "WOW" to everything she did- hanging upside down, climbing up things....and then she tried it all too. I sat on a bench and watched them have fun. I should have brought my book.

Justin is up in Golden mountain biking.

It feels weird to know I will be leaving for Pennsylvania a week from tomorrow.

Ava has dance pictures Saturday morning and then we have a picnic to attend later in the morning. Life is busy.

Tuesday, May 27, 2008


Yesterday there was an incident with chocolate milk spillage on clothes that was predicted and then surprise by Ava that we were frustrated after the warning didn't heed the prevention. *sigh* Justin was the one who was more visibly upset about the whole thing. I was just sitting there on the couch shaking my head, but I was the one who was told by Mallory that Ava told her to tell me that she "hated me."

I decided to purchase this cross-stitch kit the other day when I was at the craft store. I think the last time I cross-stitched was 25 years ago... I completely messed up the border because I didn't understand what "ply" meant in regards to the thread. The directions weren't exactly for amateurs, but I took apart what I goofed up and started over.

It was gloomy and rainy out yesterday so we all just stayed inside doing our own things. It's the same weather today, so I plan on doing a bit of cleaning and then relaxing. I already have our chicken and vegetables in the crockpot for chicken noodle soup.

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Lots of Things

A lot has happened that I want to write about since my last post.

I feel SO much better. I am so glad that antibiotics were discovered and developed. Still have a dry cough and a bit of pressure...but I finally feel like going out into the world and doing stuff again!

Justin worked late every day this week. So he was home, but he wasn't ever really home except for a tiny bit of time every day. We are all glad to have 3 days off to do whatever we want to do. No schedule and no pressure. Whew.

On Thursday, the girls and I left the house at 11:30 a.m. We headed north on Wadsworth for Longmont- and then east to Firestone to spend the afternoon with Jill & Co. I drove through 4 hailstorms and a torrential downpour. It took over an hour to get there. When we arrived and got out of the car we could hear a siren. That was the tornado siren. The tornado had passed by Firestone about an hour before that. Jill and I sat and watched the news the whole time we were there while the kids played obliviously to what was going on in Colorado. Such devastation that day...and miraculously only one person perished. Jill set the girls up with some chocolate Ovaltine in their milk before we started for home. We ran out of chocolate syrup a couple weeks ago and I promised them that I would buy more on Friday...but then I remembered we had that syrup from Italy. When Justin got home I raced to the store to get a few more items for our dinner. While I was gone, Justin made chocolate milk for them...with the Italian syrup...why not? They gulped it down- I mean it was gone within seconds. Justin decided to have another taste and took a swig. He had more than the other day when he was testing it out and this time he felt a kind of burning sensation on his tongue....sooooo we think there is probably alcohol in it and he accidentally gave them some. I popped the lid today and took a whiff and it smelled like a melted chocolate rum ball to me. I won't be having any of that...and neither will the girls...anymore that is.

Yesterday when I picked Ava up from school she wanted me to help her try and swing across the monkey bars. A lot of the kids her age can do it and have been able to do it most of the year, but poor Ava is one of the smaller 5 year olds (gee, that sounds familiar!) and has been scared to and simply hasn't gotten the hang of it yet. I help her do it almost every time I pick her up. Anyway, back to yesterday- I helped her do it and 2 of her classmates were showing her how to get all the way across. Finally, after cheerleading from the 3 of us she did a couple on her own, but then she'd freak out when she got to the middle and just hang there...then her hands would start to hurt and she'd drop down to the ground. She wanted to keep trying and since there weren't the normal 7 people in line for it, I helped her- with the other 2 girls taking turns. She was excited that she actually did a couple on her own. This morning she could hardly wait until Justin was ready to take them to the playground. If she had her way she would have gone in her pjs the minute she woke up. When I got home from my meeting and lunch date she was ecstatic to tell me that she went all the way across by herself...multiple times. I told her that she'll have to show her friends on Wednesday and that they will be so amazed. Woo Hoo for Ava!!

The other day I caught Mallory red-handed coloring in one of Justin's novels with a crayon. I chose her timeout to either be on a yellow chair or on the mat in the kitchen. She would not stay in timeout for even a nanosecond. I struggled with her for HALF AN HOUR. I was sweaty and coughing and gagging and almost puking and exhausted by the end. She was pushing and hitting me and I was afraid she'd bite my leg. I gave up. The girl is recalcitrant. I wonder how she'll do next year in preschool. Oy! So, after I threw in the towel, I took a closer look at Justin's books and saw a very well drawn orange person. The only color crayon on the table was a brown one- the one I saw Mallory holding. I asked Ava if she drew the picture. She said no. I asked again and said I knew it wasn't Mallory- that it looked like something SHE drew. She said she didn't want me to get mad at her. I asked her again and she said she didn't want me to be mad. I finally said, "I am not going to be mad- please do not lie to me. You need to tell Daddy you are sorry when he gets home." I don't have the answers...and don't even want suggestions...I just need to get it all out.

Well there was more...but I am going to end for today.

Hope everyone is having a nice and relaxing Memorial Day Weekend.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Things are looking up

I called our pcp office today and they are booked solid all week. I can't believe I said I'd wait until I a masochist or what? The girls and I went to the clinic and I now have a round of antibiotics that I reaaaaallly hope does the trick. Then no one will have to listen to my bitching and moaning anymore. Hooray!

The semi-thick brown liquid from Italy is in fact chocolate syrup. Woo Hoo!!

Monday, May 19, 2008

Back to Normal

Justin is back from Italy. My sense of smell and taste is slowly coming back. The cat will now sit on my lap when I watch t.v. (she avoided me while Justin was gone...weird).

I did have an awful panic attack on the way to the airport yesterday. I had to pull over on the interstate. I've never had to pull over before. I am sure it was triggered by the nasal decongestant I was taking. Stupid nasal decon. All week either my nose was a sore fountain, but I could maybe taste a bit of whatever I was eating OR I took a nasal decongestant and didn't have to have a tissue handy all the time, but then I couldn't taste anything. And don't even get me started about the pain. I STILL have facial pain, but since I can taste I don't feel like running to the doctor. It feels better and I have faith it will go away. if by Thursday I still feel the same I will call and make an appointment.

Justin brought some chocolates home for the girls and the hotel gave him this bottle of brown semi-thick liquid. We have no idea what it is...the label doesn't offer any I guess we have to open it and taste.

5 more days of school left for Ava...and I think 3 more dance lessons until her recital. I hope everything goes ok with that since I won't be here...

Saturday, May 17, 2008

They should be exhausted

Busy day today. The kids were up at 7:30 sharp...sneaking in our bedroom to check on me. I made scrambled eggs, sausage patties and cinnamon rolls for breakfast- this I could taste.
My dad came over and I left for my meeting. The person who was supposed to bring the topic and lead the discussion called me and left a message saying she wasn't going to make it. Apparently she also called our moderator, but didn't leave a message...kind of odd. We made do - as women never seem to run out of things to jabber about. LOL
I came home and my mom and dad were making the girls' lunch. I ran to the store to get some cash while my mom looked through Ava's preschool stuff- basically a folder of things she worked on over the year to track her progress that I got at her conference. After lunch they watched the Sleeping Beauty dvd my dad re-burned for them. I ate some leftover Chinese which I could barely taste and then talked to Justin as he roamed the streets of Milan. LOL He was trying to find some sort of souvenir for me and he and his co-worker went into this store that was like Pier One...neat stuff, but they started picking stuff up and discovered it was all "Made in China" and "Made in USA." Oh well... He has some Belgian chocolates from the plane ride to give to the girls.
When Sleeping Beauty was over we walked over to Ava's school for their Spring Fling. They decorated crowns, jumped in the bouncy castle and had their faces painted. Ate a cookie and got a free book each. I talked to a few women that I see when I take Ava to school...and now I am thinking I might join PTA next year.
I splurged and got Mc D's for dinner and the girls wanted to watch Sleeping Beauty again. They should be ready for bed after their bath.
Here's hoping my face pain doesn't keep me awake again tonight.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Oh My Sinsuses

At 2 a.m. this morning both girls woke up spontaneously and wanted to sleep with me. I groggily noticed that I had left our bedroom window open as it felt stuffy when I went to bed 3 hours earlier. This morning my sinsuses are painfully clogged. For the past few days I was feeling good physically and fully expected to rise and shine this morning with a clear nose and faint cough. Not so.

We were going to visit with Jill this week or weekend, but her grandfather died and they have funeral and family stuff...

I wish I felt like organizing the girls to clean their room really well...I keep saying we are going to do it, but then I never feel like it when it comes right down to it. I've kind of let them have the run of the house this week...just not feeling myself.

I dyed my hair yesterday and it dyed Darker than what it was supposed to's the same one I always use. *sigh* I am not sure what to think about it.

That's about all in our world...better go check to see what the girls are up to...

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Ava won't poop again.

I need to re-dye my hair...soon.

Justin is in Milan, Italy eating dinner right this moment.

My mom is in Lincoln trying to get my Grandpa into a nursing home.

My sister is in Florida with 2 months or less of her pregnancy left.

Mallory found an old spray bottle, filled it with water and washed all of the windows.

I got a letter in the mail about Ava's Kindergarten. I had stopped by the main office yesterday to ask about what I needed to do...and registration is July 31st. School starts August 12th. Ava can't have these poop issues if she's going to school all day next year.

I am going to talk to the preschool about what the hours for the afternoon session are since Ava's school starts 40 minutes AFTER the preschool... That's a lot of back and forth in the morning in a short time period. According to the teacher at Ava's conference yesterday neither session is filled up yet... Ava's conference went well. I warned her about

I was all set to watch Season 6 of Curb Your Enthusiasm last night and the WRONG dvd was in the sleeve. It was the 2nd half of the season...I ended up watching it anyway, so now they need to send me the first 6 episodes... *sigh* I am starting "Queer as Folk" tonight...I already checked and it's the correct dvd. Whew. I was going to do "Ally McBeal," but they only have one dvd out...not the entire season. I see that "Thirtysomething" is finally being released now...can't wait!!

Monday, May 12, 2008


The girls and I had quite an adventure on Saturday. After eating lunch we headed on over to Tarjay. I did not have a list...and not having a list is bad. Having a list is bad too, so you can see how NOT having one at all is...worse. I bought a few new things for the house- a new duvet cover- white-ish, a new kitchen rug (I swear I go through them so fast). I also got food and presents and a few things for myself (for Mother's Day we'll say). And for anyone who waits until the day before a holiday to find a card for that holiday...well you'll know that it's a mob and finding a card that is suitable from the picked over selection is nothing short of a miracle. I had 2 cards to buy on Saturday and I thought they were pretty good cards- I put thought into their selection. Anyway...after our hour and a half shopping spree we checked out and headed home. My nose was a fountain and I was looking forward to the nasal decongestant I had just bought. So which bag did I not end up at home with? The one with the CARDS and the DECONGESTANT and the few things I bought for myself for being such an awesome mom. I have never not been handed an ENTIRE bag at checkout...sure the checker or bagger has failed to BAG a certain small overlooked item...but to not be given a bag....UGH. I had no choice but to get the girls' shoes back on and strap them back in their car seats for my mad dash back to the store. None of us felt good...I had that sickly sweaty feeling that you get between the times you have the chills. This was the LAST thing I wanted to do...but it was at least 15 dollars worth of stuff I had bought and wasn't able to call my own.
Once there we went to the same lane we checked out of and of course there was a different checker. No problem though. She sorted through the multitude of bags that were set aside...the ones paying customers didn't pick up...or is it that the checker's aren't giving us our stuff?????? It seemed mighty suspicious to me that there were THAT many bags an hour after I left and mine wasn't there. We then ventured over to Guest Services. I like how they now call us Guests instead of Customers. LOL The lady that helped was nice and she had a manager come over and he instructed me to go and pick up what I didn't go home with and meet him back at the counter. They told me that the stuff had probably already been re-shelved. WOW. Not even an hour later and they were already putting the stuff back to make more money. I could tell that the stuff had been put back too...funny. We went to get the cards first and I found the one for my dad, but the one for my was no where in the area where I originally picked it from. Frustrated, and sweaty, I ended up grabbing another one that was a little higher in price...the manager would just have to figure it out... We got the rest of the stuff and walked back past the card area and I decided to have one more look for the card. I found it...and lost Mallory at the same time. She had wandered off with another family. She was walking along holding onto their cart. When I finally spotted her the mom and dad were looking around for me- aka the person responsible for her. Sheesh kid!
Sunday was a better day. We hung out at a park with my parents and had a lunch, played and talked. I took some pictures- check them out. The girls were still tired from the day this morning and didn't want to get out of bed. Neither did I, but Ava had school. I think we are just going to take it easy today...go outside for a bit after lunch. This cold just won't leave!

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Off to Europe...

Justin that is... I *really* hope he doesn't end up getting the virus the girls and I has just wiped me out all week.

We don't have much planned this coming week...except maybe a trip up to Firestone to see the Fischaber's finished basement and new trampoline!

I cannot believe school is almost out. The summer is going to fly by too fast.

Friday, May 9, 2008

Googly Eyes

Earlier this week I bought some craft supplies at the Dollar Spot at Tarjay. One of the items was Googly Eyes. It reminded Justin and I of this skit that was on SNL recently...and now we can't stop mimicking it. The girls think we are funny though...

Wednesday, May 7, 2008


Every time I move wherever my clothes rub against my skin it is painful. Ava is home from school today with a yucky, gunky cough and fever, again. We've only had this since Monday, but it seems like longer. You know I am sick when I try to drink coffee and it just doesn't taste good. :( Is it time for bed yet?

Tuesday, May 6, 2008


The 3 females of the house are sick. Colds. Major snot and productive coughs. Annoying. Ava had a bit of a fever this morning so I kept her home from with all of the activity it makes her cough... We will's just a bummer.

Yesterday the girls had their first dental appointments. It was a successful and non-traumatic experience. No cavities and when I told Ava she'd come back in 6 months...why her eyes grew huge. What a treat the dentist is...LOL

I have Ava's Spring school pictures to send out to people...

There isn't much else going on...end of school stuff... Justin goes to Belgium and Italy next week. I am gone the first weekend in June, then he's gone the weekend after that. Busy...

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Great Day

Yesterday I had the greatest day. Attended my WFS meeting and had a great conversation about the differences in programs/treatment for alcoholics and how ridiculous it is to say a person cannot be in an intensive outpatient treatment program if they are drinking. Basically you have to stop drinking in order to get help....the very thing you are in treatment for- to stop drinking. Anorexics aren't told they have to be eating normally in order to be in treatment to eat normally... The reason I love the program I am involved in, WFS, is because it focuses on Self-Help. You change your life with the help of other women. It has none of the moral and "you are weak" stuff the "other" program least from my understanding of it. I am not saying it's all bad as I know it's helped people, but I just know it's not for me. Anyways, after the meeting, I joined 4 other women from the group for lunch at a yummy Italian restaurant. They had the BEST pizza. We will definitely have to get take-out from there some Friday. When we sat down the waiter said there was a wine special- 15 bottles of wine for 15 dollars. We all started laughing super hard and said no thanks. Of course once our laughter dispersed we realized that the wine was not a dollar a bottle...that would be insane, but every alcohol abusers DREAM.

Friday, May 2, 2008


Girls Kick Ass is written on one of my t-shirts...this is a shirt I've had for over 10 years. Hardly wear it fact forgot I had it until I was cleaning out my closet. I wore it today while cleaning. Ava asked me what it said. The conversation went like this:

I said, "Uh...Girls Kick Butt."

"BUTT?? What?"

"Girls kick butt....Girls are COOL."

"Girls are cool?"

"Yah...Girls are awesome!"

"Girls are awesome?"


"Are girls awesomer than boys?"

"Yes they ARE!"

"So I'M awesome because I am a girl!"

Later on she came up to me and pointed to my shirt and said, "Girls are COOL."


This morning, Mallory jumped on our bed to say good morning and torture the cat...not exactly in that order. After Mo was banished from the bed Mallory hugged me and said, "Mommy- you are so sweet."

After my meeting tomorrow a few of us are going to lunch. I am always asked, but always feel like I need to get back to the troops. I've been told recently that I am inspiring, a role model and motivate people. Hmm...I still feels foreign to me that my peers would look up to me. That little voice in my pipes up- *They wouldn't think that if they REALLY knew me.* But, truth be told, I am changing. I am not the horrible person I thought I was. I have mellowed, which I think is a benefit not only for myself but for those around me. Who wants to be around someone who while striving for perfection literally paralyzes herself? How much time was wasted agonizing over the PERFECT meal for dinner...not being able to make a decision? How much energy spent worrying about what was right or wrong? Compassion for everyone- putting myself in their shoes- has really made a difference in my life. I have learned to not take things AS personally... Nine times out of ten when someone has an issue or is in a bad mood it is not about ME, but THEM. This is so freeing. I am still working on not caring (as much) about what people think of me. This has been a lifelong isn't easy. At the conference I am attending the first weekend in June I want to bring an item for the silent auction. I better figure it out...I just can't think. I could try making something...but what??

I made the most amazing Cooking Light dinner muffins last night. They'd be delish for a brunch as well.

Cheddar-Green Onion Muffins

1 3/4 cups all-purpose flour (about 7 3/4 ounces)
1/4 cup yellow cornmeal
1 teaspoon baking powder
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/4 teaspoon baking soda
1/4 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper
1/2 cup (2 ounces) reduced-fat shredded extrasharp cheddar cheese, divided
3 tablespoons chilled butter, cut into pieces
1 1/4 cups fat-free buttermilk
2 tablespoons chopped green onions
1 teaspoon minced garlic
1 large egg, lightly beaten
Cooking spray


Preheat oven to 375°.

Lightly spoon flour into dry measuring cups; level with a knife. Combine flour and the next 5 ingredients (through pepper) in a food processor; pulse 3 times to combine. Add 5 tablespoons cheese and butter; pulse 5 times or until mixture resembles coarse crumbs. Spoon mixture into a medium bowl. Combine buttermilk, onions, garlic, and egg; stir with a whisk. Add to flour mixture, stirring just until moist. Spoon batter into 12 muffin cups coated with cooking spray. Sprinkle evenly with remaining 3 tablespoons cheese. Bake at 375° for 18 minutes or until a wooden pick inserted in center comes out clean. Cool for 5 minutes in pan on a wire rack; remove from pan. Cool completely on a wire rack.

12 muffins